I have a huge sorrow within me.
I have discovered how blind I have been for years — blinded from using a familiar old tool: manipulation
. . . to get out of situations.
. . . to get through situations.
. . . to be present.

. . . to be in relationship with someone who has their own agenda and will not listen.
. . . to deal with people who are harassing others and me.
. . . to be with people who are beating up other people and hitting so hard that they collapse.
I am so tired of being this girl.
Now I know another truth.
I now know that my soul can lead me in every moment, and that I can trust myself to find a magical path for me and everyone else.
I can trust that I don’t have to attack to protect myself or others. I can simply trust my soul.
I feel free.

Janne is a student in the NEATO Pathway 2 – Fusion program. She lives in Oslo, Norway, and likes to write, walk, and talk!